11/10/2012 sketch of the DAY!!

Media: ballpoint pen!

This one isn't actually quite finished. I still have yet to decide what her weapons will be, so I haven't drawn her hands yet. Hahaha... don't worry, I'll update it when it's done!

11/07/2012 sketch of the day!

Media: ballpoint pen

Well, this started out as just a cute little doodle... and then it started to turn into something much stranger.

11/05/2012 sketch of the day!

Media: ballpoint pen

Funny, I started out drawing something similar to a Zora from the Legend of Zelda series, but it wound up as, at least in my mind, something a bit more like a grotesque little mermaid.

11/02/2012 sketch of the day

Media: as per usual, ballpoint pen!

Started as a doodle in Japanese class, so please excuse the writing practice! Also, impressed that this is one of my few non-disturbing sketches.

Interestingly enough, I didn't notice until later that I had given her bikini a patriotic motif. I ended up casting my ballot in the presidential election on this particular day.

Sketch sketch sketch!

Uploading this a bit late, but here's my Halloween sketch! It's a little rougher than some of the others, because I didn't have as much time as before. All of my class projects are wrapping up right now, so it's been a little bit of a scramble.

Media: ballpoint pen

Sketch of the day... sort of?

Well, today has been thoroughly hectic. So to make up for the fact that the only drawing I've done today has been for my typography class, here's last Saturday's sketch of the day that I never posted.

Enjoy!

Media: ballpoint pen

Sketch of the day~

Today's sketch started out as something just ornamentally appealing... a swan. Somehow, without me really noticing, it became some strange swan/raptor mix...

Well, enjoy!

Media: ballpoint pen

10/23/12 sketch of the day!

Somehow, today I got the idea to use a canine skull as a basis for the sketch of the day. Mostly, I just kinda wanted to draw the skull, but it became a little more than that.

Media: ballpoint pen

Introducing... sketch of the day!

I've decided that it's high time I start drawing, pen(cil) on paper, much more often. My goal is to fill up this little sketchbook I have by the end of the year. It might not happen every day, but I'm going to do my very best to squeeze it in.

So, now I present to you, the very first... sketch of the day!

Media: Ballpoint pen

duality

There is something so innately human about the struggle between what we have and what we don't, what we want and what we need. Either we know what we want, and we want it NOW... or we have no idea what we want and we sit in a stupor hoping someone else will tell us what to want.

I know what I want. I want for much. Not everything I want is important to everyone, but it is to me. There are some things I want that I cannot have- things that I have been denied for whatever reason. Either it is simply not possible, or there is an obstacle in the way. But how can you know if that obstacle is just a roadblock or the end of a cliff?

The biggest struggle for me is when every puzzle piece seems to fit just right. Everything seems to fall into place. Everyone thinks it's a grand idea. And then someone comes and slides that puzzle off the table. Maybe it was even a friend of yours, who worked on the puzzle with you, every step of the way. And when they turn to talk to you, their elbow pushes all your hard work right over the edge, laying on the ground in ruins.

Maybe they didn't mean to. You hope to God that they didn't mean to. You pray that they really had good intentions all along. You don't want to be mad, you just want the problem fixed.

But when you spend all your days convincing yourself that the problem is incurable, that the disease has spread too far to be contained... that no matter how much you like this thing and want this thing, you shouldn't have it because once you do, something could go wrong... that's not living.

You may even think you're holding yourself back for someone else's sake. But when you're in this together, there's no reason to hesitate. If something goes wrong, yes, that's sad. But when you live out the situation to its full potential, you at least know you've done all you can... instead of throwing everything away without seeing it through to the end.

I find myself wavering back and forth between the things that I want and the things that I need. Sometimes, I can't tell the difference between the two. Often, they're intertwined, serving each other.

All that I know are the things that I want. The things I can't have right now. The frustration I feel when that is made so painfully clear. When the difficulty of the situation or aspiration is revealed.

Will I stop chasing my wants, my hopes and dreams?

Hell no.

There's no point to a journey when you don't have some destination in mind.

Twitter account!

For those of you interested, I've created a professional Twitter account!

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manifesto

When our creative minds sit idle, we get caught up in fleeting, physical definitions of who we are. I am female. I am mixed race, black and white. I am 20 years old. But I am NOT my gender. I am NOT my race. I am NOT my age. I am something much deeper. Something that cannot be described by physical qualifiers. Down at the very core... that is just ME.

Set free the creative machine.

My corner of the universe...

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